Moving forward...

Hello world.. myself... whoever may read. I wish I could say that I've made more progress in giving the blog a facelift but that would be a lie. I'm working on it I promise. I'm still trying to get a better work ethic going. Life is basically... work work work... and then when work is over all I can do is clean and be lazy. haha. If i could just get a few big ones scratched off the to do list I'd feel soooo relieved.  Something I've been doing lately is forcing myself to cook new things. I tried this recipe two weeks ago and had complete success. It was even given a thumbs up by someone with a taste for real mexican food. This genius Rick Bayless cooks some mean mexican food guys.  I've gotten to know a lot of Hispanic people since I started working at the place I work and lemme tell you, true mexican food is very different then what we know in the US.. or as we know it here in Texas, "Tex-Mex".  This was delicious and pretty easy to make honestly.





Moving on, I'm making a real effort to get back into blogging in more of a personal experience.  I'm more concerned lately with this blog serving as my "idea board" or my inspiration book and for personal growth so to speak. Before it just wasn't MINE enough. =) Here's to moving forward (metaphorical toast goes here)

tata guys.

kat ann

Letters to art.

it's been a long time, and i wish i could say that i had a good excuse but i dont. the truth is, i havent felt too inspired by anything. its been a rough few months artistically and emotionally. i've been struggling internally about who i am, what is me, what i am doing, where i am going.. etc etc. if you've ever had one of those moments where you told yourself "what the hell. i should be doing something big. i should be creating something inspiring,amazing and beautiful and coming up with beautiful ideas and im not. i should be experiencing things and going places. im going nowhere and it sucks."



well that's kind of been me lately.

and the honest truth, is that i've been trying too hard. for too long. ive been striving so hard to create something a certain way, for a certain audience, for a certain end result and that has lead to squat. i havent been being true to myself. i havent been following my heart. i havent been following my dreams. i guess you could i say ive kind of sold out. so there it is, its all on the table. lets start from scratch. lets reconnect and find each other and do what we do. lets satisfy ourselves and no one else. we've been procrastination too long. i miss you art. dear 16 year old kat, i miss you.

love, the old lady.

life lessons: failure.

"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."
Bill Cosby

Today I had quite an epiphany. A while back I had started some design work for a client who I knew on a personal level. This certain client has a spectacular, successful new business. I was excited because this was a great opportunity for me to help someone I knew and to get a great piece added to my portfolio. Needless to say, what ended up happening was that they used my design for a while and it ended up not being what exactly what they wanted and they ended up getting a new designer a year later. and I wasn't used to that. I felt as though I had let them down and myself down as an artist and a designer. I felt like a failure, even though it was one client and one project. This company now has a spectacular web site up and is very well done and creative. And I guess that's just how it goes. The worst part was that I knew I couldn't done better or tried harder. It made me question whether or not this was what I was meant to do. It made me question whether or not I WANTED to do this the rest of my life.

Some people will like you, but it wont be right for them. Some people will hate you. Some people will love you.

I've had very little formal training and have been 99% self trained, so I have always felt a little bit at a disadvantage or a little unsure of myself as an artist. My "Achilles heel" so to speak. But after lots of thought and praying and working things out in my head (and through this blog) I've realized that failure and rejection are a simple part of the learning process and the growing process. Sometimes it's a good thing for you to be "just not what we are looking for". It's a good thing to fail sometimes. It gives you a chance to step back and look at yourself and what you do with a critical eye.

But today, I'm officially dusting my shoulders off. I dont tend to write about personal things, but I felt that this may be able to relate with some of you who have ever faced the same problems. Have you ever felt like giving up or failed at something, how did you deal with it? what epiphanies did you experience? What did you learn? I'd love to hear!

Ta Ta for now.