it's been a long time, and i wish i could say that i had a good excuse but i dont. the truth is, i havent felt too inspired by anything. its been a rough few months artistically and emotionally. i've been struggling internally about who i am, what is me, what i am doing, where i am going.. etc etc. if you've ever had one of those moments where you told yourself "what the hell. i should be doing something big. i should be creating something inspiring,amazing and beautiful and coming up with beautiful ideas and im not. i should be experiencing things and going places. im going nowhere and it sucks."
well that's kind of been me lately.
and the honest truth, is that i've been trying too hard. for too long. ive been striving so hard to create something a certain way, for a certain audience, for a certain end result and that has lead to squat. i havent been being true to myself. i havent been following my heart. i havent been following my dreams. i guess you could i say ive kind of sold out. so there it is, its all on the table. lets start from scratch. lets reconnect and find each other and do what we do. lets satisfy ourselves and no one else. we've been procrastination too long. i miss you art. dear 16 year old kat, i miss you.
love, the old lady.
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